Thursday, May 17, 2012

A Special Message

Sorry this is going up late everyone. I swear I am appealing to the night owls, or the people who are too drunk to remember. I wanted to tell you guys and gals what has been going on with me. Last year at this time, I was fighting a losing battle. It was for a married woman. I was head over heels for her. How many guys you know would walk twenty miles in a storm for someone? I got so depressed when she said that she was going to stay with him. I felt part of my world crash down around me. Someone I cared about just hurt me. She told me we couldn't even hang out anymore. Well, who would have thought that a year later that I would be fighting another losing battle. I only wish it was a from a woman. However, the battle is with my health. I got a call on Monday morning that has changed my entire week. The doctors have confirmed the only way to stop my blacking out and seizures is to have the surgery to remove the knot from my brain stem. I have no idea how to feel about this. It has made my entire life come to a grinding stop. I have a lot on my mind at the moment cause of it. I do not want to be paralyzed from the neck down. Does anyone want to come hold me? A hug would be amazing right now. I have not been ignoring you the loyal readers, all 11 of you, I have been trying to think of what to do. The one thing I can say is that I am going to continue to do what makes me happy. That is write for you every day I can. I don't know why but you guys are like my family but with more incest. Some of the stuff on here is just out of stupidity but sometimes like this, it comes from the heart. This is one of those moments. We will be back tomorrow with a retro video, a Hall of Hotties, and something very special. Until then, I love you guys and gals like a fat kid loves pudding. Damn it. I want some pudding.