Monday, August 06, 2012

Is it The Liquor Talking?

The last couple of days I have been kind of down. I mentioned it in the Retro Music Video on August 4th. Those feelings have become a little stronger than they were two days ago and I have been wondering why. Saturday night, I was at a birthday for my biological Dad. I threw down a few beers and some wonderful tequila. That night when I got back to his house I decided to plug in my laptop and surf the internet for a little bit. I needed to calm the nerves down before I was to fall asleep that night. The one thing you can do is look at Facebook statuses. I mean it's really the only thing that can sober up someone that is very tipsy. I log on to my little slice of Facebook and there it was a slap in the face I never expected. The first 4 things were right there. 4 women from my past. I thought this was cruel Punk'd joke. I know we all have the doubt and sometimes more than others the thought in the head of, What ifs? What if she hadn't have ran? What if she would have been single? What if she liked me the same way? What if I would have chosen her instead of listening to others? Am I the only one who goes through this? Could this have been the liquor or something of a higher power? I am guessing it's a little bit of both. I am a firm believer of everything happens for a reason. I just wish I knew what that was so I can get out of this funk. I am ready for the future and hopefully I learn from my past.